That's really something, obscure beyond coincidence.

While watching a show, I felt moved enough by a quote on it that I wanted to blog the quote, to see if it bares resonance with anyone who might stumble across this:

"I don't think you can analyze love. It's the greatest mystery of all. No one knows why it happens, or doesn't. Love is a chance combination of elements. Any one thing might be enough to keep it from igniting - a mood, a glance... a remark. And if we could define love, predict it - it would probably lose its power." - Hidden Wisdom from the writers of Star Trek Voyager [episode transcript].  s4e22

Now for the incredibly obscure part.  That episode is Season 4, episode 22. While looking up the quote to make sure I had it properly quoted, I discovered that the original air date of the show was April, 22; or 4/22. Odd coincidence. Yet I don't believe in coincidence.

Some may call it foolish to entertain such nonsense, but there is power in numerology.  It would be a tremendous oversight to not mention that main-stream beliefs such as Judaism, numbers even carry some mark of power.  Certain events such as the tragedies of 9/11 have certainly ingrained in us a reverence of certain dates and number sequences.

With astrology and numerology being a fascination, it was easy for me to notice even early on as a child that bad things occurred directly on or around my birthday, April 19, there were a ton of events that I've noticed over time that occur around my week of birth, hailed in my mind as "International terrorists and psychos week". Look at the up the dates in history around the week or "cusp" times of I about 5 days around April 20th and I'm sure you might find some intrigue there yourself.

| April 17 | April 18 | April 19 | April 20 | April 21 | April 22 | April 23 |

I challenge anyone to follow the above links to Wikipedia, where They can see for themselves the odd things that have occurred right and around this week in history. But looking at this week as it's own consequential "hell week" gives me pause and some area of concern alone. I associate this Astrological Cusp as to be a very powerful time of the year for drastic, sweeping change.  And rolling on an idea that this quote above, was something that very few people that can spot the signs can get a glimpse into the future.

Perhaps it's a message to me from the creator or something.  I can't shake the symbology of numbers, and refuse to accept the inherent powers of them.

So, proposing the opening quote is a message, to me or my sub conscience queues on this, that this is a date of note, I am blogging this here as a possible proving ground. Many times in my life I have had a prediction or a gut feeling about a date, but this coming year, pay close attention to the date 4/22.  Perhaps my benign noting of is would be as miraculous as you, the reader, or me the writer, possibly falling in or out of love on that very day.  And perhaps, since 3 of my previous personal relationships have truly disintegrated a week after this target day... well perhaps speculations and ponderings could point to an inner revelation that I am having while typing, that this message may be critical for me to remember.

Folks, this is astounding, the true implications of this are hitting me like a ton of bricks as I type. An epiphany about the hows and whys that have led to some painful breakups that have left me very weary along lines of Love. It has previously wrecked my psyche; over thinking and over-analyzing why I, such a benevolent, humble, honest, and loyal man, can be so afflicted and feel so devoid of love from this world.

Ahh, love unrequited. Love lost. I know it all to well.  I could blog on and on about this, stew in the juices of my own misery about it, but I don't see that as cathartic. Re-living the past never is, but I must learn from it. I must be sure that I don't make some critical mistakes again.   If I would just trust my intuitions first, instead of being so blinded by the hope of true love! Alas, I hope it finds me before its too late, and I become a dried up, stale husk of jaded callous that I become incapable of ever loving again.

It's hard to believe that the one thing in this universe that can be given so freely, is the thing that we ourselves need so desperately. The more you give the more you have, the less you give the more you lose.
That's a me quote. And a damned good riddle.  One that might harbor more hidden wisdom than most of my "nonsense." Riddle me this: It's all subjective, right?  Isn't all art?  Isn't Love as well?

An Eye to the Sky & The 11-11 Enigma

I've been quiet lately.  Life is crazy.  Deviating from my theme of sustainable energy for a bit, I just saw my 3rd U.F.O in 2 WEEKS.  Very strange.  I am a trained aircraft spotter, well... trained in the fact that I worked at an airport and learned the difference between commercial, military, and small aircraft.  I also darn well know the difference between how a satellite looks and something a bit more.

I don't have photographic evidence, but I do have witnesses for 2 of 3.  This makes a total of 7 UFO's seen this year alone in my corner of nowhere.  Most of them have been orange-yellow balls of light, and 3 of those have had obvious military aircraft scrambled to pursue.

What does it all mean?  3 in 2 weeks? As we reach what some feel is a turning point economically with our country? Things are strange.  Strange indeed.

In 2 weeks I embark to Sedona Arizona, following a vision I had 10 years ago; during this time of heightened sensory perception, I drew a mountain scape, an alien head and a triangular "star pattern" on a mural in my old apartment in Kansas City, and it struck me as ominous. I told myself if I ever found those mountains I had to go there.  The where was revealed to me as Sedona when I identified the mountains on the Travel Channel, a brief glimpse of 2-3 seconds where they They showed a flash of Thunder Mountain by Sedona. This was 5 or 6 years ago that I learned the "where".

Thunder Mountain - Verde Valley, near Sedona Arizona

When I saw the 2-3 second clip on the travel channel that actually showed "my" mountains, it was a EUREKA moment; like that scene from "Close Encounters of the Third Kind" where Richard Dreyfus finally sees Devil's Tower and all the insanity of sculpting this crazy vision finally made perfect sense. It dropped my jaw. It dropped me to my knees.  It left me in silent wonder.  I KNEW, finally, that the image I saw wasn't a fiction invented by my mind; that this place was a tangible location that I MUST make a pilgrimage to.  Everything else in my life has been trivial, but I knew that very day, in an instant, beyond any sense of doubt, that this place is linked to my quest.

I, like so many others, have been seeing 11:11 on clocks and seeing repeated 1's in patterns for about 10 years, to the point that it can't just be sheer coincidence.  Deciding that 11.11.11 is a powerful and highly symbolic date, I committed to making that my target date for my pilgrimage, giving me the "when".  So, when intuitions lines up, one reaches a point where they must take a leap of faith.  There are no coincidences, at least not in my world.

So, I preparing to embark on this journey, following my soul and intuition for all its worth: a spiral into the unknown. But I am not alone.  Not at all.

Meet Scott Love, a man with the same vision: 11.11.11@Sedona has become a calling for many as I have learned.  He moved from Chicago to host an event in Sedona at this time.  He has dedicated the last 20 years of his life to following the path of the Indigo Children.  I was planning on being in Sedona years before I found that he felt the same calling.  Thousands have.  The Indigos are being summoned.

We are the old souls, star-children. Incarnated again to see us through what is to come over this next generation. We arrive with purpose; healers, teachers, and truth-seekers, to help humanity survive whatever transitions we are moving through as a species and culture.

I am not alone.  We are not alone.  We are united by common threads that weave us together subconsciously and ethereally.  We hear the same faint whisper, feel the same impulse, and have all been tasked with becoming unlocked.

We are the Indigo Children.  We are humanity.  We are a Revolution of love.  We are Comm(unity).  We are to be activated in a big way in service of humanity! This is the purpose behind the 11.11 message.  To be unlocked and have our spiritual gifts made clearer to us all.

You may think this article strange, or even crazy.  The fact is that as days go by I have cared less and less about secular opinion.  Evil lays in wake, with the apathy of when good men not obeying what they know in their HEART AND SOUL to be true.  I BELIEVE in this.  I BELIEVE.  If you don't, that's fine, but don't weigh me down with your dogma. Most people I know feel SOMETHING is up. They can't define it because they haven't been listening to the universe.  I've been listening, but much has been lost in translation.  Try as I may to pry open my third eye, the voice is a whisper and the visions are hazy.  The clearer visions of what must happen are weighed down by fear. Fear is the greatest of all evils.

Other signs point to it.  I find meaning in the music I hear, particularly in the messages revealed by Maynard James Keenan via his projects Tool and Puscifer.  The latest Puscifer album, "Man Overboard", has a song on it called Green Valley that Directly speaks of the Verde River, the life-blood water source of northwest Arizona. His song Indigo Children, is a summoning of power and strength to me.  His Tool song "Aenima" speaks of an Armageddon and being safe in Arizona.  He himself has moved to the Verde Valley in Arizona, not too far off from Sedona.  I know it's vain to even think that his songs are focused at me, but it's very very clear that he's advocating a message to Indigos such as myself; "A message of hope to those who chose to hear it, and a warning for those who do not."

Feeling that I have adequately presented the Who, What, Where, When, and Why, the only point not addressed is the "How".  I am financially "strapped for cash". I have set aside enough for gas and for a few nights of lodging, and I am operating on a prayer that a) my car doesn't have something go catastrophically wrong, and b) that the weather will be suitable for camping so I can save some $$$.